Just over a week ago, I was really ill. My Spirit ached for my mother - not necessary my own mother but mama energy: soul-caressing, spirit-calming, heart-restoring softness and healing. A nurturing femininity that feels like the melody of a Minnie Riperton album, like sipping warm cinnamon sassafras tea with almond milk, like the poetry of India Ame'ye, like the warmth of the Sun on your breasts, like the enchanting beauty of peonies, like the fragrance of Egyptian geranium, like a moist kiss on the forehead while being rocked, like forgiveness when you've erred. . .
FREE TO EXPRESS, DEVELOP, EXPLORE
When I was a teenager, my mother said "these are the best years of your life." What I now gather from her wisdom was that at that age I was free to express, develop, explore life and the world without concern for paying bills, children depending on me, navigating relationship with injured adults or any of the nonsense and minutiae of the world's domesticated human illusion.
A gentle response diverts anger . . .
On this Venus-ruled Friday, I'm vibing on the sweetness and softness of life. I'm honored to be able to contribute my monetary harvest to the enterprise of my landlord, watch my children grow and witness their expression of beauty in world fighting its way out of weariness, heal the traumatized and inspire the lost with the warmth of love, beauty and wisdom.
Life is sweet, magical, miraculous and full of wonder which if one is not careful can be obscured by the race of the rat. I awoke with this scripture in my heart. It is a scripture most likely inspired by a more ancient text. The author of Proverbs 15:1 has a wise insight that "a gentle response diverts anger, but a harsh statement incites fury." A harsh tongue is all too easy to express, a harsh response for harshness. Gentleness in the face of the disrespectful, brutal, and fearful is masterful because we are ever alchemists, magicians and magi. Anger is resistant and what you resist persists. So remember above anyone else, be first gentle with yourself dearheart.
As there is a time and place for everything, today gentleness . . . softness . . . sweetness will be my meditation . . . stay soft, stay free Beauty.
Written while listening to Minnie Riperton's album "Perfect Angel."
♡ ☆ ♀
Day 7 of 10/13 Moons
Waxing Crescent Moon
Did you know that the word "evil" is simply "live" backwards? The opposite of life and growth is death and destruction. I'm gonna ask that you stay with me, I may lose some of you here.
Being a metaphysician I can see the fingerprints of truth throughout all religions and holy books no matter the tampering or politics involved in the propaganda therein. There is a scripture (Romans 6:23) that reads "the wages of sin is death." The seven deadly sins according to the Christian church are: pride or vanity, envy, anger, laziness, greed, gluttony, and lust. Sin is being defined essentially as "missing the mark" i.e. violating the laws of God in other words Good or Maat which is the goddess embodying justice, Divine order, cosmic harmony and balance.
Still with me? Good. Stay with me. It'll be worth it.
It goes on to say: "but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord." Knowing the background of this scripture I know that Christ is another way to address our "highest consciousness." Jesus refers to the Savior or the Hero (who before the Christians, the Greeks referred to as Horus and before the Greeks, the most Ancient Egyptians referred to as Heru, the original immaculately conceived "Anointed One.") and our Lord translated means "our Law." The scripture translated to me reads "but the free gift of God is eternal life in Highest Consciousness Heru our Law."
Huh? Right. Ok. Just let that process for a bit.
I was talking to my si"star" friend Aphrodite after she'd watched the film "Vampire of Brooklyn" starring Eddie Murphy and derived the message that if there is even just a small opening for evil, a person is easy prey.
In the film "The Devil's Advocate" Al Pacino's character, who played John Milton who was actually the devil said: "I only set the stage, I don't do anything but I don't make it easy for you."
Herein, the greatest power that we embody is our power of choice and freewill. Our greatest shield of protection from being overcome by evil is righteousness - not self-righteousness but living in Maat which means Divine order, cosmic harmony and balance. My immunity to evil becomes impenetrable through discipline.
I'll be updating this as needed, but here is my working method for Construction Of My Spiritual Armor.
1. KNOW who you are.
Remember that all things come from God or Good and you are an embodiment of this Divinity and benevolence made manifest. No matter how dark, malevolent and chaotic you feel or express yourself to be, you were created by Good/God and are destined to return to that.
2. DETOX, HEAL + BALANCE your Spirit, Body, Heart and Mind of its wounds and imbalances. Daily address any offenses to your Spirit, Body, Heart and Mind so as not to accumulate a high level of toxicity within. Our Ancestors knew that disease begins in the Spirit so allowing this load over time can create a compromised immune system and eventually manifest in your body.
Ideas of not being good enough, pretty enough, rich enough, not popular or successful enough, feeling jealous, helpless, poor, etc. can give birth to the pursuit and/or addiction to celebrity, money, power, physical beauty, or sex. Those that are most victimized or conned are those that grew up having been abused, exploited or neglected from an early age. Emotional, mental and spiritual violations or voids that exist within can create a crack exposing an entryway for evil and destruction to enter.
In this state the wonderful world of illusion and pleasure becomes an easy out. Any form of media can become a powerful vehicle for the seven deadly sins to run rampant. Pride and Vanity, like a natural opiate is the enemy's favorite sin. (The Devil's Advocate)
There's a line in the Autobiography of Malcolm X that I never forgot. He said he found women to be vain based on the ability to soften up even the "hardest-looking, meanest-acting woman" by looking her in the eye and telling her "she's beautiful" daily. Be a woman who is so fulfilled and solid in her sense of self that a compliment doesn't have you handing over the keys to your queendom and strung out like a crack addict.
3. LISTEN to your highest consciousness . . .
. . . your inner oracle, your own wisdom, your first mind, your gut, your heart. Most people don't realize that our heart is our most powerful brain. So when someone says to "follow your heart," people confuse that with following your feelings or emotions which are temporary. Because your emotions are temporary you most definitely don't want to give them the last word. When I say your heart I mean "the voice" of God or good, who speaks simply. You know those moments that you ignore "the voice" and in hindsight you say "I had a feeling." Put nothing above the voice of God/good within.
4. BE self-contained, whole and complete.
This isn't to suggest that man or woman should be an island, however let the focus be on cultivating yourself to be a flame, a light that only becomes greater and brighter in concert with others. Be self-contained and fulfilled through simplicity and balance, never extremes. I'll never forget a line from the film "Hurricane," a story about Rubin Carter who was asked how he survived in his circumstances. He replied, "I've trained myself not to need anything."
5. RESTORE ORDER in your life.
Put your life in order, top to bottom. Your health, your home, your relationships, your business, etc.
6. EAT life.
Eat life by mouth, by eye, by ear. Keep in mind you're consuming at every moment. The food you eat, the propaganda and programming you watch on your TV, in the movie theatre, on social media and the radio, music, people you listen to. You are a sponge so be aware that your subconscious does not know the difference between real or Memorex (look up the popular commercial if you're too young to catch this reference) i.e. artificial, fact v. fiction. Keep your life force and your vibes high. Tune into the love i.e. life, light, good, God frequency to ward off pests, after all you can't get too close to the Sun. So eat life and shine bright.
7. SURROUND yourself with people of light.
Birds of a feather flock together. It's been said and almost cliche that you are the sum total of the five people you surround yourself with. They are not only your greatest influencers but your greatest reflection.
8. KNOW, RESPECT & ABIDE by the laws of the universe and nature. When you violate universal or natural law it creates disorder, disease and destruction. Respect the "laws" and rules of your household, community, city, state, etc.. Learn, know and abide by them. There's even a law for freedom i.e. the freedom to will. Freewill is a law of nature and when you violate this law, your way will be shown back to freedom. Ever notice how when you say you will "never" do a thing that you are proven wrong? When you say what you will never do, that is a violation of your freewill very much like making vows forever. Making a vow for forever violates your own freewill.
9. UNDERSTAND your enemy and the evil within.
Darkness, breakdowns and pain may look like a bad thing, but as it turns out are a wonderful catalyst for expansion, growth and clarity on what you do require and desire. Ask those who were laid off and started a successful enterprise or someone who divorced and ended up connecting with the greatest love of their life. What evil meant for bad, love meant for good.
"For they intended evil against thee; they imagined a wicked device, but they did not prevail." - Psalm 21:11
At the end of the day, the story of Harry Potter was the fight between Good and Evil. He had to surrender to the death of the evil within himself. We are our own worst enemy and the people, places, things, experiences, politicians that show up in our lives are a reflection of our own insecurities, fears and attempts to con ourselves into taking shortcuts. The shortcut becomes the long way. The cheap becomes the expensive. There are no shortcuts, hacks, tricks to our ascension, there's just staying the course back home to yourSelf.
SHARE & TWEET: I am Whole, Perfect & Complete because I AM whole, perfect and complete. If you don't feel like you're quite there, it's a great goal to have.
♡ ☆ ♀
Day 5 of 10/13 Moons
Waxing Crescent Moon
If happy girls are the prettiest girls (Audrey Hepburn) and taking care of myself is the ultimate cosmetic (Akua Auset) then achieving a state of peace and wellness must be my foremost beauty regimen.
It's nothing new that people suffer silently with depression, anxiety and panic, addictions, anger, schizophrenia, all sort and form of mental illness. Since peace is our natural state that must become the standard for living if we are ever to be happy and well. When you violate the laws of nature and the laws of our biology things go awry. As a beauty naturopath I have studied, researched and personally found it to be true that often emotional, mental imbalances can occur when we are malnourished. Malnourished in America? Yes. But I am a thick girl. Yes and still you can be malnourished.
People can eat, eat and eat while at the same time remaining malnourished. If the food you're consuming has no nutritional value, then the substances you're eating just becomes a form of your entertainment, not your sustenance, vitality or longevity. If we desire quality of life, we must eat life to live. Food with living enzymes, elemental and mineral value.
I've eaten nutritional yeast for years and it began with my desire to get a vegan source of the B-complex which is a necessary component of our mental health and wellness. Every part of the coconut is basically God's gift to hueman being. A tablespoon of the once vilified coconut oil daily has been known to reverse symptoms associated with Alzheimer's disease. Eating anti-depressing leafy greens daily provides complex carbs, fats, proteins, and minerals and I know for myself if I've got a yummy dressing in the wings, my desire to eat a salad goes way up! Here's such a recipe.
PP (Pretty + Peaceful) Dressing i.e. Mental Health Dressing
1/2 c. bragg's nutritional yeast
1/4 c. raw coconut oil
1/2 c. tamari, liquid aminos or *coconut liquid aminos (it will be less salty and a bit sweet)
1/2 c. organic apple cider vinegar
2 to 3 cloves of garlic (2 if large, 3 if small/medium)
1 1/4 c. cold-pressed sunflower or extra virgin olive oil (try both to see which taste you prefer)
cayenne pepper to taste
* 1/4 tsp. pink himalayan or sea salt
PUT everything in the blender except the oil.
BLEND and slowly add the oil.
STORE in refrigerator.
DOSAGE: 1 - 2 TBSP. daily on a big green salad.
SHARE + TWEET "I'm having mental health dressing for dinner tonight!" far and wide for the mental health, peace and progress of ourselves, family, friends, community and world.
♡ ☆ ♀
Day 4 of 10/13 Moons
Waxing Crescent Moon
Feeling alone, unsupported, overwhelmed?
Is cash flow a bit stagnant?
If you've been "stingy with your goodies" read on.
In the book SUPERWOMEN & GODDESSES: Workin' Your Power & Magic, I shared that the times in my life that I was without, it was because I was "being stingy with my goodies." Being an artist who's a bit introspective I can just nestle up in my wonderful home nearing the verge of reclusion. Ever see that film "About Schmidt" with Jack Nicholson about a recently retired man who ponders if and how he's made a difference in his life and the transforming force that giving made in his life? It's a very touching film about the power of giving. While giving is indeed transformative, I must add a slight disclaimer, by reminding those who are already robust givers to make sure that you give to yourself FIRST. The goal is to give from your abundance and fullness.
It's time to give.
This may be an item, it may be a smile or a hug or a letter/email the list is endless, there is always something we can give to people. The more we allow ourselves to give more to others, the more love is shared.
Remember the last time someone gave you something, how did you feel?
Let us share more of this. Remember one of the best gifts you can ever give anyone is your time.
ACTION TO TAKE: Give generously, be it your time, a gift, an item, the list is endles.
"I give with so much love, and in doing so, this lifts me even higher and also lifts those who are receiving too."
This card is from the Divine Reminder Oracle Deck by Jolene Setterfield.
♡ ☆ ♀
Day 3 of 10/13 Moons
Waxing Crescent Moon
photo credit: goddessrising.org
It's a new dawn , it's a new day, it's a new life . . .
- Nina Simone, "Feelin' Good"
Time to read: 3:46 min.
What do you desire Beloved? From the center of your heart, what is it?
Take a deep breath and bring to mind the greatest thing that concerns you, scares you, makes you angry, sad, discouraged, disillusioned. Before getting into the real emotion of it, stop and give thanks for it. Give thanks for it? Yup! Give thanks for it.
Great things always come out of a problem solved so give thanks for that great thing because on the other side of this feeling or experience is the yearning or true desire of your heart.
Ok, bring that to mind and feel it, immerse yourself in what it would be like to experience that reality and hold that vision and feeling for at least seventy seconds.
Then declare: And so it is. Thank you.
Perhaps the greatest song ever written of this age was "Don't Believe The Hype" written by Public Enemy. We get caught up on the hype of what was designed to be a catalyst for our rebirth. The caterpillar was never the destiny of the butterfly. The pain of the hueman being is not our destiny. We were born to create to be free, to be beautiful and to love.
NEW MOONS & BUTTERFLIES
Today is a New Moon and the perfect time to activate your imagination, to entertain your fantasies, envision your dreams and launch your desires. The pain that is being paraded across our TVs, computer screens from various communities around the world is only the pre-cursor to of an era of lovers, creators and beauty unless . . . the butterfly believes the caterpillar stage of its life was its destiny.
What is it gonna take for us as a collective to experience a golden age in huemanity, a renaissance? To pass this test that we're being given as a collective?
STAND IN OUR IDENTITY AS LOVERS & CREATORS.
We must be aware of what is so while also keeping our focus on what is working, what's right, good, what's possible and engage in the business of amplifying that daily, as a practice. If you don't feel it, how do you get there?
Well GENERATE the feeling. Move your body, listen to music, drink and eat green foods. But just get there! Because one person vibin' on love, beauty, and possibility is more powerful than a thousand who are not. It's always the 1% that make things happen anyway, that participate, that follow-through, that act, that make history, that become legend. When has there never been a case when light didn't overcome darkness, literally. Think about it, a match or a lighter creates the ability to see in a once pitch dark environment.
So plant your seed in this New Moon energy and be that point of light, that creator, our lover.
♡ ☆ ♀
Day 1 of 10/13 Moons
Up and about at last night's pop-up exhibition.
Oh Happy Day!
I awoke with Madonna's lyrics "I made it through the wilderness. Somehow I made it through."
The last week and throughout September I'd been feeling uncharacteristically ill and was a bit scary as a healer having done all that I knew to do in regard to remedies. It's clear that it was a clearing of energy that just had to go. Author of "Anatomy of Spirit" Caroline Myss echoes our Ancestors that all illness and disease begins in our Spirit.
My second message this morning was "Thank God I don't get everything I desire." Sometimes we really think we "want" a thing and are shown had we gotten it, it would have been our undoing.
I was invited to participate in a pop-up exhibition to present my healing beauty rituals collection A U S E T : B E A U T Y and wasn't sure days before if I'd be well enough to attend. I was feeling better but then ninety minutes before I started feeling bad again. I smudged, declared, got in the tub with love crystals, declared, cleansed and got back up renewed and strong. It was an energetic releasing of darkness i.e. grief, shame, fear from my body. Then I had the desire to hear Jill Scott's "Slowly Surely."
I was able to go to the event and share my work like a minister shares the gospel. The triumph was in being there, not how much product I sold but like a farmer planting seeds into fertile soil with love everyday.
NEW CHAPTER OF CREATION
Today on this Jupiter-ruled Thursday just a day before this New Moon in Libra bringing in a new chapter of creation, my heart is full of "Thank you." Today won't you wear out these words to the people and experiences guiding us home to ourselves like a loving mama standing at the door illuminating our steps with light and love?
♡ ☆ ♀
Day 29 of 9/13 Moons
And still I rise.
- Maya Angelou
This note is dedicated to all of the elders, teachers, ancestors, pioneers, mavericks, trailblazers who have come before and left clues, maps, sacred texts so that we may continue the work of the Light Ones.
- - - -
How does one harvest an apple?
First, plant the seed. Furthermore, I know that when I plant an apple seed, it is impossible to harvest a watermelon. What I sow is what I reap, this is the universal law of cause and effect at work.
Author, Comedian, Health Activist Dick Gregory reminds us that the greatest and most powerful law of our lives, this land, planet, universe is Universal Law. We've learned that when we violate the laws of nature there is a price to be paid; again cause and effect. Case and point, our bodies are made mostly of water, like 85 - 95%. When I don't drink water, I dehydrate my body then all sort and form of malfunction begins to occur: lack of energy, lack of concentration, inability to breathe, perhaps even death.
As "hue"manity experiences its growing pains, what Charles Dickens said comes to mind, "this is the best of times, this is the worst of times." It's easy to get distracted and take on a Neptunian style of living when you look at your life, your community, our world and have no clue of where to begin with solving the human dilemmas - so you seek escape from it all. "It's so much, it's too much. Wonder what's on Netflix?"
Consider that the solutions we seek have nothing to do with worldly things but in our ability to create - to be the metaphysicians we were born to be. We are multi-dimensional beings, with intellect and yet also creativity, literally the ability to CREATE. As the author of SUPERWOMEN & GODDESSES: Workin' Your Power & Magic almost ten years ago now, I suggested that "without knowing it, we have created a great deal of painful and pleasurable experiences not overstanding our power as goddesses and superwomen."
It is only in feeling powerless that we disconnect from our innate power of being creators. The beauty of seeing, feeling and otherwise experiencing what we don't enjoy is that it creates a desire for something else, a dream or vision. From there we can begin to create differently, consciously - even otherworldly. My consciousness, thought, feeling and actions precede the manifestation of things and conditions.
The Plutonian influence of Kali (death/rebirth) during this Autumn Equinox gives us an opportunity to leave behind outmoded consciousness and create anew in a clean kitchen. A new month, new moon, new beginning is just days away and possibility is abound.
So what if we let go of this illusion of powerlessness? What would happen if we awoke from our "mean sleep" thinking that: Celebrity, Isolation, Illness, Poverty, Violence and Prejudice are normal facts of life? Aren't they just illusions i.e. nightmares that can be undone?
Also there's so much more that can be said about each of these things I'm going to skip that inquiry and suggest that we get quiet, fast from the unnecessary, and tap into the voice of our inner oracle and activate the metaphysician that works universal law, the superwoman that powers in possibility and the goddess that inspires life in everything she touches.
Imagine a world where the sleeping giants awoke and expressed every gift, talent and ability. A world where there was no concept of celebrity and that each citizen of this planet was an honored member of a harmonious and honorable community, health and vitality is the status quo, each person, family and community had access to anything they required so there is no need to hoard from others, peace and cooperation amongst a diversity of cultures, traditions and expressions of hueman being with option of a dual citizenship amongst the heavens.
This vision is not so far-fetched as the standard was set before by the most ancient Kemetians (Egyptians) who famously lived in peace for thousands of years without the need for police because the goal of each citizen was to be an empowered and enlightened being. I have to agree with Carter G. Woodson, that said "When you control a man's thinking, you do not have to worry about his actions."
Sheep are adorable in fact I was born the year of the sheep according to Chinese Astrology, however like the caterpillar transforms into the butterfly, it's the holy hour for the beloved sheep to become the metaphysician.
Get quiet. Fast. Tap In. Dream.
♡ ☆ ♀
Day 27 of 9/13 Moons
"How you got him is how you will lose him."
"Love is dead, I want to die. My heart is broken."
While another innocent man was senselessly shot by police yesterday, the newsfeed was dominated by varied sentiment on the ending of the "Brangelina" era. I have to admit that when I heard the news my heart sunk a bit too. Celebrities or not they are human beings. We root for love and project our hopes, dreams and fantasies as well as our fears, phobias and disillusionment on other people's relationships.
"The Notebook" and "Cinderella" stories seem to be the default or ideal love story in our psyche and anything outside of that looks like failure in the love life department. But is that really fair?
THE HOLY GRAIL
Years ago a gentlemen asked me if I was married and I said "no."
He further asked if I ever was and I said "yes." In fact I went on to say that I believe every intimate relationship is a marriage. He offered his apology and said "I'm sorry it failed." I said "but it didn't. It was one of the greatest experiences of my life, we are still close and I grew in such profound ways so I feel that the union was a great success." Just because a couple chooses to redefine their relationship doesn't mean that it's a failure. Just because a couple stays together for fifty years doesn't mean that the union was "successful." Many people view a walk down the aisle as the holy grail and staying together no matter what as successful. I've asked the question "Do You Really Want A Ring On It" to explore this notion.
GROW & EVOLVE
I agree with Jujumama's Kenya and Carl Stevens that the purpose of relationships are for growth and personal evolution and not necessarily to get love because ideally we already identify ourselves as love and are already in a love relationship with ourselves. When it comes to relationships, marriage, partnership, union there is no "one size fits all" template. Each person comes to this life unique with a specific life's purpose, mission, lesson and how we experience and express those things are one-of-a-kind. Our complexities don't neatly fit in a box.
Whether you're celibate, single, married, divorced, widowed, it's complicated, open relationship, monogamous, polygamous, polyandrous, for seventy-two hours or seventy-two years it's perfect for YOU. So it's not really fair or accurate to believe that all people have to have "The Notebook" or "Cinderella" template to constitute success in love.
I really feel that what we're each really looking for us the ultimate union within - our perfect expression of feminine and masculine within. Two flames becoming one to create a greater flame - power couple. I realized recently that it doesn't make sense to put absolute trust in human beings because at the end of the day we are - human. And that although it looks an awful lot like it, the REAL relationship isn't with him, her, them . . . human beings. The relationship I have with another is the relationship I have with the Omnipotent, the Omniscient, the Omnipowerful Creator of all things within ME.
POWER COUPLES + THREESOMES
I am already in the ultimate power couple relationship with the Divine. God is my boo, my bae, my Beloved. I'm the first lady of the All. How do I do that? My love affair is with the expression of Good, Life, Love guided by the laws of the Universe - Maat. This union becomes polyandrous when I share the energy of this union with everyone I come in contact with including the man at my side. He becomes the beneficiary of that love, the vessel through which I rendezvous with the Divine: The ULTIMATE Threesome. It's a BIG IDEA right? Try it on.
The only possible failure in relationship I see is coming out of any relationship the same as you went in because that means you didn't grow or evolve. If you're not growing you're dying. So I say let's dive in to every union, partnership, marriage willing to do what it takes to graduate to the next adventure whether it's with one or multiple teachers.
♡ ☆ ♀
Day 21 of 9/13 Moons
We run off . . .
We medicate . . .
We do whatever it takes to cover it up and dull the sensation.
We're suppose to feel.
We're suppose to love and hate and hurt and grieve
and break and be destroyed
and rebuild ourselves to be destroyed again.
That's humanity. That's being alive. That's the point.
That's the entire point.
Don't avoid it. Don't extinguish it.
- Grey's Anatomy, Season 11 Episode 24
How do you escape pain, grief and avoid loss . . . boredom?
Do you numb your pain? If so what's your drug of choice?
. . . because if you're numb to the pain you're also numb to the passion, the joy, the happiness, the pleasure and all the other delicious feelings and experience of being a human being. When you put up a wall to block one thing it blocks EVERYTHING else too.
If you can stand in the moment of discomfort knowing that the discomfort is temporary; that "this too shall pass," it becomes a holy reference point. If you take the discomfort on like a researcher or observer and use that information to dream and create what you would rather feel or experience, the contrast creates a new desire in you (Abraham Hicks).
Yes, moments of pain can then become a tool for your growth, development and expansion. Put another way, it's pain and the things you don't desire that help you to get crystal clear on what you do desire.
So my beautiful whirler of magic, FEEL IT ALL with gratitude knowing that the spectrum of feeling and experience is what it is to be human, if you can feel, it means you're ALIVE and you can create something beautiful from this "icky" moment. Avoiding, blocking and otherwise trying to escape pain is discarding one of the most valuable resources for creating what you desire. The KEY is to not stay in the "icky," in the pain because then you're just suffering (SUPERWOMEN & GODDESSES p. 18).
What if you took the blockers and blinders off . . . tore the wall down?
What if you freestyled it today, opened your heart and mind?
Today is a great day to feel all the PASSION in this life in all it forms and use it to dream, create and expand.
You meant to hurt me, but God turned your evil into good to save the lives of many people, which is being done.
- Genesis 50:20
♡ ☆ ♀
Day 20 of 9/13 Moons